Taking the Blogs Offline

Dear Friends and Followers.

I have decided to take this blog offline because I feel I can be freer than having it open to the public. I learned I haven't
been as open and honest as I'd like to be because it is online.

I've nothing to hide but let's face it- most people read blogs from having a following- I do not have a following- yet but hope to one day in near future.

I need to focus more on myself and my needs and not worry what everyone else is doing or who I've pissed off - Bottom Line- Who Cares? You can't live to please anyone but yourself- it just won't happen and there is no reason why you should.
FB is starting to get me sick- It's mostly used for self- promotion and things that seem like they should be private are made public- I got sucked into it that also but now I want to get away from it.

Remebering peoples birthdays I barely communicate with- ridiculous. I'd rather gain knowledge and feel like FB steals my knowledge while it gives me very little in return- Although some on my friends list have some interesting things to say but lately even pressing the like button is getting tiresome
Having said that. I have not been blogging much- I realize they are like a dime a dozen so time to venture on my own.

I'll pop in and out once in a while- Nina

ANNOYING PEOPLE

I like writing funny stuff on FB but really hate when people friend you and are always like up your butt- It's so annoying- I hate to be mean but if this continues some people must be defriened - soon!!!

Fell bad sick of snow cooped up cant wait og o into city 2weeks fear is getting to me- sick of this job need things to get bette rine very day- blah blah blH SUCH BULLSHiT- THank god for cats

OMG- Jury duty sucks help like going to airport- waiting room no destinayion snrers- gross people and smelly
waiting waiting hard to stay awake- quarters the meter quarters the meter- work no pay- have to tell lawyer finacial life story- do not make me serve- lousy jury- i have gas all day- ill say that- gas all day 24/ 7
cold today- everyone was froxen on street- saw people walkingin courthouse- same people frozen poutside- like hi,am popsicles- CRAZEE

Winter Sucks

OK- so I am not writing everday but at least it's closer. I know when I hit Level 46 that's it-
I won't be on FV and can focus on other stuff. Working at home with your husband is really hard- Thank God I have the upstairs- it's like my little apartment- only thing I do not have up here is a LITTLE REFRIG AND BATHROOM- accid cap locks. Tomorrow is my day off and I have to see The Fighter- a Must on my list- my pjs are torn and I need pants- Marshalls might be OK for pjs but not sure about pants- It's always like the 3rd world in there- The Illegals
go crazy inhere and the place really looks like a hovel- not nice and purty like Greenwich.
I'll go to TJ Max when I visit my mom next week and they should have some decent merchandise. I have to work out now and get the #$%^ out of this house. TBC- Niner

The Holidays

Wow! It has been sooo long since I've posted anything on here. I guess my attitude was no one is really reading it so why bother but I need to do it for myself.
After the moving setback and all the stress it created- I've been trying to make a conscious decision to not say anything to anybody until it's a done deal. I feel like the whole situation made me look flaky and I am not flaky. When I make plans, I stick with it and usually do what I say. Also, I had to get my old job back working part time at the school which is better than nothing but not the best. I know I am talented but constantly give my power away and it upsets and frustrates me. Especially hearing how great people are doing. I was so tired with living in NY -
well, not so true but things weren't happening for me like 4 others and I admit- I was not aggressive enuf- I did not focus on my careeer enough and I am not at the point in my life that I want to be career wise. At least I am now It some casting places-
I have to keep that going. I wish we could live in NY- I am always so happy there but if we move it better be to a big city or I just can't handle it. My goal this year is to get more money and enjoy doing things I like to get more creative ideas. Fancy res'ts can wait- I'm just as happy hanging with my friends ans eating bar food. OK I have not done that in a while but it's about who u are with- not where u are. And you have to be happy with yourself before u can be happy with others.
Lots of setbacks but I will continue on my journey. I am not going to quit or hide in the corner- My time is coming!!!!

OK- here I go- I haven't written on here in a while because a lot it going on but I'm still sitting in the same place. Things seem to take a lot longer than u think and
it would be great if we could just know what the right thing would be or say but we don't and we do the best we can. Somerimes we win and people like us and sometimes
for no reason at all- we get the cold shoulder but remember it isn'i us- it is them.
Everyone has something they are dealing with but noone ever really knows. That's what being human is.
My husband is back until Sunday and then I won't see him for awhile again but next time he has 3 days extra leave time- no he does not work for the army but the company is run like an army- Feel like an Atmy Wife- We are close to selling our place and I pray everything goes smoothly and these people get their mortgage. So now realisitically- I'll prob be here until Nov or even middle of Nov- I'm OK with that- tons to do and they wanted a closing date of Oct 20- ironically I never would have had the guts to leave my part- time job I've had at a college for over 3 yrs if this opportunity did not come up. Now I can try to do extra work- not thats so much better but I really need to be around people. My sisters' coming in next week from LA and my mom has to get another biopsy Tues- she had a lumpectomy 2 yrs ago- they think it is just scar tissue and I pray it is because isn't it weird for cancer to come back in same exact place- I do not know but I pray she will be OK- Dads' Alzheimers is getting worse everyday - so much worse than last year and it makes me so sad to think one day he won't even recognize me. I am sad now It was World Alzheimers WeeKlast week and Celebrity Millionaire donate all their money to Alzheimers. Wish they could find a cure.
Tired now- will try to write more consistently more now that I have a clearer head.
Be grateful for your health